so far away

You say things like run away with me

and I don't think you know how much I really want to.

Or maybe it's the other way around.

And I really want you.

And I can't have you.

Because we are opposite fucking sides of the United States of fucking America and I can't handle not having you so I might go and cry.

I don't know what it is that we have.

(i.want.to.be.your.girlfriend.and.i.want.you.to.be.mine)

but I like it.

And I really need to tell someone how mad I'm going over this amazing girl I have this crush on

but my mom's out of town and how the fuck do I tell her that anyway?

I don't know what to do but go to bed and try not to think of you and fail and cry and try and sleep and fail and cry some more.

hey me

i wish i could tell people how i feel instead of shirking around the subject or just thinking of great things to say

so

i think i like you too much

and i want you to like me back

and i can't say that

so i end up listening to so far away on repeat