so far away

You say things like run away with me

and I don't think you know how much I really want to.

Or maybe it's the other way around.

And I really want you.

And I can't have you.

Because we are opposite fucking sides of the United States of fucking America and I can't handle not having you so I might go and cry.

I don't know what it is that we have.

(i.want.to.be.your.girlfriend.and.i.want.you.to.be.mine)

but I like it.

And I really need to tell someone how mad I'm going over this amazing girl I have this crush on

but my mom's out of town and how the fuck do I tell her that anyway?

I don't know what to do but go to bed and try not to think of you and fail and cry and try and sleep and fail and cry some more.