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This is me, angry and alone at my dad's house. Angry because I'm all alone. Dad went out with his girlfriend like HA SURPIRSE last night. I see him every other goddamned weekend and all he does in his free time is see Sandy and watch football. Gosh dad I love ya too. Coild I be any less obvious about, too? Being grumbliy and not looking at him and asking him to buy me stuff? He asked what we wanted for dinner, Pizza or what kids? I just watched Quantum Leap and mumbled, I don't care I don't know whatever, Arby's, Get me a Pepsi. Don't you have something to drink, AJ? Don't got to Pepsi, Dad.
So he brought it home and then left. Like 5 o clock. Blake left at 7. Goddamn goddamnit. I hate this. I hate it when they leave me alone and his TV is crap and I don't even have internet friends. I'm so angry and all I want to do is eat a cake. I'm on a fucking diet; I eat when I feel bad so screw it. I want a fripping cake. Or some chocolate. But I would kill for a cake. Or, oh god, some cupcakes. Holy shit I want some fucking cupcakes. I want to eat cupcakes and watch Quantum Leap until 11:3-, when I want to eat cupcakes and watch SNL. Which maybe I can't even do that because dad's TV is shit and we got no cable and for some reason today he's not picking up NBC. Motherfucker.
Sam is coroner./Mortician. He looks good in black and white. Last night I was watching this with Blake--till about 3 in the morning-- and now he likes QL, and he said the same things I did: What the hell is Al wearing and why is Sam a dumbass? Anyway, he now likes QL, but mostly for Al. I loves me Sam but there's something about Al.
My hair is too long. I just want to take some scissors to it. Fucking fuck.
I'm not even looking at the screen as I type this. I've got the keyboard on my lap and I'm faced at the TV. Hnn.
I want to wall some where but why and where to and Dad'd come home and not find me and be pissed. Not worth it.
It's just so quiet. And not so sane to talk to TV characters like I am.
Fuggetaboutit. I'm going to google cutting hair and making cupcakes from scratch,.