vinyl is dead

But I still like to buy records anyway. Also I don't have a record player. BUT. Today I was at Goodwill with dad & blake and I was looking at records and mom just scoffs and laughs at me and says you dun have record player, but my dad was like DUDE, RECORDS and helped me look for a bunch. Let's see. I got: Hotel California (the Eagles), Endless Summer (the Beach Boys- okay, yeah, but I like I Get Around or whatever it is) a Pink Floyd thing (some double album of a live thing or something..), Julian Lennon ('cos he's a Lennon), and dad picked out a Bad Company album so that's all cool.
I really need a record player.

black friday

3 t-shirts: The Beatles, the Who, Pink Floyd
watched Pirate Radio and could not find I Wanna Hold Your Hand (movie) online
but all in all
good day

pauuuull

Tonight that Paul McCartney Good Evening New York thing was on tonight...mhm, he's like, he's so amazing, I was just perpetually smiling for the whole hour. Lovelovelove times so many. It's crazy.
And afterwards I said to Blake, "Oh he was talking about being in New York reminded him of John and ohh he sang Here Today and it was just just ohh", meaning that it was so sad and sweet I wanted to cry but Blake was like, "well that explains perfectly was it was like, thankss." And then we were joking around about the incident where Paul went and visited John in 1976 and got turned away. 'Paul just leave, this isn't liverpool.' 'FINE John I don't need you anyway! I'll...I'll go and make an album with Ringo!' '*snicker*' 'whatever paul' 'What was that?' 'what was what, Paul?' 'Is...George in there? George?' 'SHH I'm not here!' 'Yeah, George isn't here.' 'And we're not just hanging out and making awesome music together. ' '*sniffle* WHATEVER like I CARE about you GUYS...me and RINGO are just...just......*sniffle*' 'Are you CRYING, Paul?' 'NO.' 'haha, he's cryin'!' 'I AM NOT *sniffle* crying! me and Rings are gonna make an album called HEY EVERYBODY JOHN AND GEORGE SUCK THEY JUST SUCK' 'hahaha' 'STOP LAUGHIN' AT ME'

which is weird 'cos it's usually Ringo we joke about, but it's all good fun; I just love the Beatles so friggin' much it's crazy. It would be so amazing to see Paul in concert. as it is I'd settle for Ringo haha. Ringo would be awesome, too. or the DVDs of their concerts. yeah, that sounds mighty cheaper and more likely to happen...but OMG the WHO are playing the SUPERBOWL halftime. HOLYSHIT YES. I mean like. What's left of the Who, really, and they're old too now, and it's Roger and Pete that alive still, yeah? and Zak Starkey is their drummersometimes. should be cool.
Oh me and Blake were talking about a Second Generation Beatles Reunion. Consisting of! Sean Lennon on guitar and Dhani Harrison on guitar and James McCartney on bass (he plays guitar but somebody has to play bass, James) and of course, Zak Starkey on drums. LIKE THIS WOULD EVER HAPPEN. but it would be pretty awesome. I mean. Dhani Harrison looks like a CLONE of his father and Sean Lennon looks like (I've discussed this with a few people and this is the conclusion we've reached) an Asian John Lennon and Zak Starkey...not sure if he totally looks like Ringo but he's got that nose and behind the drums it'd be perfect...and James McCartney is the one issue here because he is hella blonde (he looks like an Albino) and sort of creepy looking, haha, but it'd work I think. How awesome would this be. And how disastrous. Lol. Alternately: use Julian Lennon instead of Sean. I just think Sean is cuter.


mhmm I am bored. Oh last night I ordered two random shirts from shirt.woot, haven't bought in shirts in ages. but I really need some rock 'n roll shirts. The Who, the Kinks...I've already got a Beatles shirt but I of course need more.

i think therefore

I'm a Moderate Liberal Populist, apparently. According to some politics quiz I took today in Gov.

Anyway. this radio station rocks. 19th Nervous Breakdown closely followed by Imagine. very nice.
this is more and more what i'm doing with my time..sitting around and listening to the radio. Nothing wrong with that.

classic rock saturday

I've been listening to Classic Rock 102.9 like all night, waiting for a Beatles song. There's been Bowie and Hendrix and the song I Want You To Want Me (off the top of my head can't think of who sings it but it's a good song) and NOW finally there's Oh Darlin'. Not the best but good McCartney vocals. We were going to Goodwill today and Watching the Wheels came on, and I was like, "Stop. John Lennon." And when we got back in the car after shopping I was like, "omg. MCCARTNEY." and it was Band on the Run. I love it. Srsly. This station makes me want to get one of them radio adaptors for ipods. We were going down to Albertson's and this song was bugging me, the voice was so familiar and I couldn't name it. Finally figured out it was Mick Jagger and sad it took me that long to figure it out.
Gasp! Now Centerfold. Good song.
so yeah, that's what I've been doing all night. Well. I made a pizza. And I've been reading fanfiction. And today at Goodwill I bought two records- Foghat and Black Sabbath. Right, I know. I don't have a record player. But this brings my total number of records up to 4. I have a Bob Dylan one, Nashville Skylines, and I love the album cover, and a Rolling Stones single, I think it's called. The little records. She's So Cold. Yeah. So eventually I'll get a record player. I kind of want a Beatles record. y'know. 'cos.
I had an idea for song today...at like 4 in the morning. Did I mention this? it feels like I wrote this somewhere...huh. Uh. Oh. No, okay. So I took a colored pencil from a shelf and scribbled it down. 'I wanna be your Yoko Ono.' So yeah. I imagine it with electric guitars. But it's not really anything yet...


So I kind of want to work in culinary arts or cooking or pastry chef but what I really really want to do, (Janis Joplin on the radio now. !!) is radio. Like Classic Rock 102.9. Playing awesome music all day and all that. What. Could. be. More. Awesome. NOTHING. BUt if I wanted to do radio work, I'd need serious speech therapy. 'cos I talk badly. Like my R's and my S's and this weird accent thing I do...omg Pink Floyd is playing now. I have a serious love for this radio station. Ahh. 'Money' from Dark Side of the Moon. Holy shit. I want to write a love letter to Classic Rock 102.9 and I really want to work there. Is not likely, is it? What is life without rock 'n roll? Could I do it, I wonder, totally revamp my speech patterns all by myself by, say, next year? It's crazyness. I'd have to completely rewire the way I speak and how I say words...is there a website for this? fuuck. Radio Communications. There are classes for this at community colleges. Which are honestly the only colleges I will be able to get into. Since AJ=terrible student who gave none to little thought about how high school would affect after-high school life. Turns out, a lot. Like. Colleges like it when you have 3 math classes. I'v had three. Just failed one. Aand. They like extra curricular activities. Ah, nope. And money...well, thank God for FAFSA. I...might try to do this speech thing. Uh, google? Any help here? See, I took speech classes from like 1 grade to 6th- every Mon and Wed I'd go to the public school and meet with a speech therapist where I'd learn my R's and S's and another boy would learn his R's. His R's are still terrible. Anyway. After I stopped taking speech classes I completely lost the knack for speaking like a normal person and in fact at one point in middle school there was a running joke that I could not not properly say the word 'kangaroo' and instead would say 'kangawoo'. Not true. Eh. Anyway. According to this one site about kids with speech problems, i have articulation issues. No big surprise. It's sort of weird, isn't it, that other people have apparently no problems saying something like 'car' but I say 'cah'? Or that other people don't have to think about making an rrr sound? Or that I am not quite sure exactly how to make that sound? Yeah I think it is a little weird...

So there's this site for kids' parents to help them. Speech Activies or Something but their little motto or slogan whatever caught me: We help those who need to be understood. That's perfect; exactly what I need. Oh there's a bunch of sites for things like this. maybe I should try these. I think, yeah, I'll try to start speaking better. There must be something wrong with my brain, that I can't properly say things? Grr.

a fact of life

No matter the time, channel, or place, if Secondhand Lions is on the television, I'm gonna be watching most of to all of it. Once it was on at like 1:30 in the morning. I watched all of it. It's just such an amazing movie. Also there is a lion. But also for the line "defend yourself." I use that one all the time. And it's just. Very cool. The whole movie. Is awesome. Uh. Yeah.

it's a rock and roll sort of day

Today I wore my City Built on Rock and Roll shirt. It's my favorite shirt.
I was in Gov. class and had finished the test which was rather easy, and so I was reading a John Lennon biography that I've been reading for ages now but it's just been getting interesting- Lost Weekend and all that, and so I happened to be on a page with a picture- Lennon drinking and looking sad, I think, and Mr. C (the gov teacher, the same one who's friends with my mom and is buddies with my brother Kody) walked by and was like, 'Can I see your book?' so I showed him it and I know he likes rock 'cos at the beginning of the year he was like, "and y'all will be glad to know I have the complete works of Led Zeppelin on my computer." so he was like, Oh, John Lennon, very interesting. I like him I'd have to say my favorite Beatle is...mhm, and here he thought about it and was like, George. And I grinned was like, Dude, yeah he's my favorite too. It's a good book though. And then he came back like 10 minutes later and was like, 'even though Lennon has the best album title- Shaved Fish.' I was all, 'yes, that is awesome.'

Instead of choir today, there was a college rep from Whitworth in the guidance counselors so I told the choir teacher I'd be there- then I went there. Anyway. I have absolutely no intention of going to Whitworth but it was pretty fun. And then I went to Knowledge Bowl where a girl I might have mentioned before (I know her, she likes classic rock like I do, she's a little weird, she plays electric guitar in jazz band, and she's uber republican so when I was in a class with her last year we'd get into loud arguments about Obama or whatever) was like, "where did you get your shirt?" I was a little caught off guard so I said, "The Internet." and she was like, oh, and I said, d'you get it, it's a city..rock and roll. and she was like, uh yes. And then the Knowledge Bowl coach (cool math teacher) was all, "AJ is that any particular skyline or.." "The city of rock and roll. is the city." I said. And for one question I'm not sure why but he asked- Who sings Paradise By the Dashboard Light? and this girl rang in at the same time I did- she said Axle Rose and I was like, MEAT LOAF. I was riiight. Anyway...

The other day in German I was bored and had Eric Clapton on the mind, so I wrote on my paper: Eric Clapton, then connected him to Jimmy Page with straight line and the words: Yardbirds/New Yardbirds, Led Zep. And then I connected Clapton to George Harrison with 'While my guitar gently weeps, Pattie Boyd', who in turn was connected to the Beatles with 'lead guitarist' and then off of the Beatles were Paul McCartney and John Lennon and Ringo Starr. And Ringo Starr connects to Keith Moon with 'Two sides of the moon' and also to Clapton with 'never without you' and to Harrison with 'Photograph' and...well, Ringo Starr is connected with most everyone. And so I was making this interlocking web of rock stars. And at the bottom I put: Map of Rock Stars.(Still in progress.)-Is everyone connected to Ringo Starr? And today in Foods I was reading my Lennon book and to Heather, who was playing with my pen that looks like a syringe I was like, do you have a pencil? and added 'Lennon---got drunk with----Keith Moon' and 'Lennon---Whatever Gets You Thru the Night-----Elton John' cos Elton John did the keyboards for that, who knew? And I think John and Paul are the only Beatles who don't connect with each other directly--which is to say they didn't really do anything together post-Beatles. We're not counting Real Love or Free As a Bird because that is zombie music.

I love this radio station. Just a minute ago- Layla. Now, Get Back. Classic Rock 102.9 for the win.

random rock and roll obsessions

So of course I love the Beatles but would I call them the Greatest Rock and Roll Band of All Time?
no.
that is The Who.
anyway, I mention this because this summer I read this book- King Dork, which is like my favorite YA book, and the main character lists the top 20 or so rock 'n roll bands, or something. Anyway. I remember copying down this list with a note to listen to those bands but never got around to it..
so now, I go back and find the list and it turns out I've been listening to those bands for the last few months. For instance, the Kinks. Who are awesome. The Village Green Preservation Society is awesomness. Anyway. The Who and the Stones and the Yardbirds and some other bands I've not listened to but need to.
What I'm saying is I need a Who and a Kinks t-shirt.
Nowww.
Amazon.
Do you know what I dislike? Greatest Hits CDs. Liike. It just kind of, well, I like to think of an album as a work of art- good bad or otherwise, as a complete work, you know. So you have your Sgt. Pepper's and your Who By Numbers and all that, but then you've got your Beaucoup of Blues and Two Sides of the Moon (ah, drummer jokes) but whether it's terrible or epic, it's the entire album as a piece and that's it, the single songs are add up to it. So when you take one here and one there just becuase they're "hits" and add them all together, it just puts me off a bit. Also there's no chronogicalness to it- you buy an album from 1966 then likely all the songs are from that year and so you've got a 1966 feel for it. On a Greatest Hits album, it's all over the place and there's a little bit of 70 and 75 next to 71 or what have you. I'm just sayin'.

none of your prima donna scenes, paul

So tonight because I was bored and can never find Backbeat online, I watched Birth of the Beatles. And uh. AHAHAHAHAHA. In so many ways it was awful and cheesy but so ridiculous and bad it was funny. Like. My favorite part is when they're doing their first recording session, and there's this bright red light on in the room, and Paul says, "Brian can we have the light off?" and Brian Epstein like snaps at him, "NONE OF YOUR PRIMA DONNA SCENES, PAUL." Haha. Also, some bits of the movie might as well been written by Pete Best-- when Brian has to fire him (the movie makes it out to be that the others wanted him out so they got Eppy to do it, but in real life the thing was George Martin didn't like Pete's drumming) and Pete's all, HOW COULD THEY DO THIS I AM THE BEST DRUMMER IN ENGLAND- I KNOW IT AND THEY KNOW IT AND EVEN RINGO KNOWS IT. Full of lols! UGH and all the Stu Sutcliffe stuff- so over-dramatized and cheesy. Another one of my favorite parts- the Beatles are about to go on stage but Stu's just dropped dead and so Astrid (Stu's gf) comes to them and says, "Stu's dead" and this DRAMATIC MUSIC OF SADNESS swells up. And then John goes on the stage and does this whole weepy thing, "mah bestest friieend is deeaayd" and uh, it was just, yeah. Bad. And omg, just 'cos Eppy was gay doesn't mean he was all flaming and feminine and 'oh would you boys like some tea?' and flirting outrageously and all that. The acting I guess wasn't too terrible, considering the task- their voices were off but the guy who did Paul, he had the right sort of girly eyes and their George was rather moody so that was alright. Guy who did Ringo was bad but he wasn't in the movie a lot. Oh I read on imdb that NONE OF THE BEATLES wanted this movie coming out, they tried to stop it and all. No joke, haha, it was made 1979, so even John was alive to say, FUCK AND NO but that didn't stop it.
But I still reallyy want to see Backbeat which is more about John & Stu. sounds like fun. and OMG Nowhere Boy which comes out in the UK next month- looks awesome. with no Beatles music in it, whatsoever- couldn't get the rights, but at the end I guess they got John's song Mother. The movie's about John as a kid. The Quarrymen and all that stuff.

The other day in English, the journal entry questions were like, 'do you think about death & dying? what occasions thinking about death & dying? what happens when you die?' Of course, this being me in English class where I am bored all the time and know the teacher doesn't even read this anyway (once I just ranted about being married to Batman for an answer to one, dunno why) I gave joke-y non serious answers or just literal ones like: "Yes. When I watch House or CSI. Your heart stops and bloodflow ceases, oxygen to the brain stops and effectively your body shuts down and from then on, begins to decay." knowing of course he prolly wanted an answer like 'u g 2 heven' or whatevs. So the teacher then poses these questions to the class- "Who thinks about death and dying?" and most of the boys and me raise our hands, and so he starts to ask why we think about our death all the time, so I say, "Well, not nessacrily our death, you know, just in general I thought you meant?" Because here is the thing: everyone is going to die. Andandand that means Paul McCartney is going to die during my lifetime and I don't think I am going to be able to handle that. At all. Nor Ringo Starr's death. I don't remember George dying (I was 11, I think, or 10) and I wasn't alive for John's. It terrifies me that any day, one of the Beatles could die. It's stupid to think about. But I still check the news all the time and wake up each morning a little bit scared. Ever since that week in June when like 5 famous people died, whenever we talk about the news, one of us goes, "aw who died now?" Sometimes Blake says jokingly, "alyssa, paul mccartney is dead" and I just look at him and go, "not funny. at all." It is probably not normal to worry about some celebrity's death like this but the Beatles are more then celebrities they're, like, fucking legends. Anyway the point of this was I did not feel like telling anyone I am continually terrified Paul McCartney (and Ringo, too, but I'm always more worried about Paul dying (which is weird because Ringo is older) (but if you talk to some people paul's already dead isn't he?)) up and dying one day. Fuck. I'm going crazy and I hope Paul doesn't die now that I've expressed such fears. I was almost in tears earlier reading about Linda McCartney, she's dead, and then George's death. ;( I can't read a Lennon biography without crying at the end. SPOILER ALERT. He dies. No, he gets killed. Arghahfgfgfarr I get filled with rage and sadness with that whole thing. Oh what annoys me: those "still pissed at yoko" shirts or whatever. HERE'S ONE FOR YOU: "still fucking pissed at mark david chapman" but then that's all MDC wanted, fucking fame, the ican'teventhinkofawordstrongenoughtodescribethatmonster.

hmm i sorta want to go to bed but Blake & dad & sandy are in the living room watching GI JOE RISE OF THE COBRA (snicker snicker rise of the cobra) and it's very loud and lucky for me I happen to have the room directly next to the living room with thin walls. (sarcasm). So I would not get be getting any sleep done. Anyway Dad and Sandy are pretty drunk I am guessing 'cos they're not really getting the movie at all. 'are those aliiennns?' 'no sandy that's COBRA' and 'snakeyes huh what's his deal?' me, from the kitchen (computer as always): 'he's a NINJA, sandy' 'ohh does he always wear that shield thing..' and blake, 'uh yeah he's a ninja' 'does he TALK' 'uhh..'
and now dad and sandy are going to his room ew ew.
maybe blake will turn the volume down so I can goes to sleep.
/is tired for no reason. have done nothing ALL DAY. well i went outside to smoke a cigarillo for no reason 'cept for being bored and then I watched part of Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure and watched that Beatley thing but beyond that, yeahh no. Oh I printed TONS of ukulele tabs/chords off dad's computer, haha.

he seems to be playing a weekend-long game of 'pretend aj does not exist and ignore her completely' for the most part. I admit he's very good at it. and usually I don't mind. but god. being ignored, if you've been, it really really hurts. and taking that one step further, pretending I'm not there is like being stabbed in the heart. I should be used to it by now. Jesus. I've been on the fucking computer all day. No joke. How sad is that? Fuck. Well, I got off that once to smoke- might try that again- and another to to play the uke for a bit. and to eat dinner and to watch SNL for a few minutes and eat ice cream. It's weird but I can't play the uke and sing here. Well I can, i mean it doesn't feel right, I feel like I have to hide. At mom's I'm like, in the kitchen going SOOMMETHIIING IN THE WAAY and blasting out the chords...no shyness or anything but there I'm alone in my room and strumming lightly and mumbling the words even though I know no one can hear me or honestly really even gives a damn about me if I am singing/playing. I'm tryin' to get the shuffle pattern down for All My Loving. down-downupupdownupdown-downupupdownup. the pattern itself is easy- now play the chords and sing along, yeah? and there's the problem. Oh well I'll get it.
I got out my dad's guitar today and good lord it is huge and unwieldy and the fucking strings are like knives and there are so many frets! and then I was holding my uke and was like, this is perfect. feels nice. better then GIANT GUITAR MONSTAH.
I keep wanting to knit something but not getting around to it. Faiil.

I am way to ridiculously obsessed with the Beatles in many ways. It's not too bad though, I guess.
/is a geek.
Is sort of bad though because well everyone likes the Beatles so when you say you like the Beatles people are like, oh right the Beatles and think you're just saying that, right, but as I've discussed before, there are different types of Beatles fan. I'm definetely in the 2nd one (knows random facts and all the songs and that) and making my way towards the third category (which is like, Beatles tattoos and pilgrames to Strawberry fields and general life-revolving-around Beatles)
and now I'm listening to the Rolling Stones. They're good. hard to believe they're from the same time period as the Beatles, the stones seem more rock and roll then the Beatles. The Who, too. huh. What's all that about then.

this evening

At dad's. Arby's for dinner. Blake's at a sleepover and so dad and Sandy and I were gonna go to a movie at like 9.20 but I was like, I am all for late movies but not late shitty late movies like 2012. Yes. They were gonna go see 2012. Ugh.
So then I was pretty set on knitting gloves with some Noro yarn and couldn't quite find a pattern I liked..and so I'm gonna knit a iphone sock/cozy Frazier who saw mine and was like, make me one? So I am with some pretty Noro.

I've listened to..Revolver, Help! a few of the Past Masters tracks, and now I'm listening to Hard Day's Night. All the Mono Remasters which someone has ever so kindly posted on Youtube. Thank you, internet. Fuck, I love the mono versions. They're spectacular. Grrr.

So I don't know how big an iphone is. But it seems to be about the same size as my ipod, just a little...er, wider...ish, but slimmer? And grr. Well. Ah. Let's see. This one for my ipod is 32 on size 4s I think- and my ipod is chunky. So maybe..that would work. It's a 2x2 rib. Maybe if I did the body part in stockinette and the top bit in rib, in a 1x1 rib or a 1x3? Then I could do like...34 or 25 stitches. That might work. ..this is me being grumpy. See it's pretty slim.

Do you know what's a really good song? I've Just Seen A Face. The Across the Universe version a little better then the original...I feel as if I'm a traitor just saying that but I like it a lot better. Is good either way though. I want to learn it on the uke...oh, hey. Tabs. and the Ukulele Mike guy on youtube (awesome uke vids) has a tuturial. Internet. I love you.

i wanted to knit a glove

So i did, with some leftover malabrigo. But I don't think I will have enough for another glove. It is warm. And quick. and now I can knit gloves.

i really hate school

Ridiculously so. Instead of choir today I went to the library and printed out a bunch of ukulele chords/tabs. Mostly Beatles stuff but I Don't Like Mondays and...oh, Re Your Brains. which is a hilarious song. I love Jonathon Coulton.
Usually after school I come home and get on the computer until about 5:30 when mom comes home, or sometimes I take a nap. Usually while on the computer, I listen to music on Grooveshark or something...but today I got out the radio/cd player and am listening to the radio. Is good. Midnight Rambler was on. Today, at Knowledge Bowl meeting during lunch, the coach (the math teacher who has the TARDIS stand-up in his room) had a video of a concert on his SMARtboard and I was watching it and, despite having never really seen any pictures of Pink Floyd, I would've sworn on my life that was David Gilmour. and it was. :D SHIIIINE ON you CRAZY DIAMOND.

Also today mastered the art of walking and reading on my ipod at the same time. Reading With Strings Attached which is so much win it's painful. Gosh.

Was very bored in English class today while the teacher was going on about this essay we have to write, about The Perfect Marriage, and my 'zero draft' was like, a perfect marriage is not possible but the perfect marriage is the constant striving for the perfect marriage. It was drivel and predictable and ridiculous. And since he's basically left this assignment open-ended, I've decided on write on a marriage I know very, very well: Homer and Marge Simpson. Should be fun; whether it'll be a good essay or not or even within the parameters of the assigned work is yet to be seen. I just don't want to write some BS essay I don't even feel.

i'm a little depressed

but for no particular reasons.
didn't have school today. vet's day.
found my brother's bootcamp (?) dogtags in the car so I'm wearing them. they have his name on them but i sort of like them.
this ukulele teacher guy on youtube had a new video today? All My Loving. which coincidentally I am trying to learn. so that's nice.
I'm just being sad and bored and realizing the Beatles are like the only thing making me happy lately. it's a little sad, yeah.
i just hate going back to school where i hate everyone and nobody notices me or anything.
it's 11:11 on 11:11. epic wish time.
is over. made a wish. hope it comes true.
i kind of want to start a baaand. but who would want to be in a band with a dorky girl who can barely play the ukulele? ;(
i told my mom today if I got the stereo collection of Beatles CDs and a new, better ukulele, I would be deliriously happy. She was like, uh-huh.

oh my i have a lot of tags. haha.

note to self

Self: next time your go to the comic book shop in Spokane, look for Vertigo comics, Greatest Hits. It's pseudo-Beatles comics. MAJORWIN. The Beatles in Comics. Awesome.

i want to make a t-shirt

One black one that simply says: 1940-1980 for to wear on December 9th since it's the (sob) day Lennon was shot...(holds back tears) and another Lennon-inspired one that has this, like, bleach-dyed onto it: we all shine on. And I dunno, just a series of Beatle-y t-shirts. Like one that has 'revolution' on it or something lame or, like, yeah. I really want to do that We All Shine On one and definetly do a 1940-1980.

i've been alone all day

Was sick home from school. Ugh should do laundry.
okay, I sorted out my clothes like mom's been bugging me to do for ages now. will wash one pile and toss the other, I guess. also, damn: I have lots of tshirts.

I've been alone all day. is disconserting. I think mom is swimming tonight too so I will be alone even longer. I don't know where my brother is.
/me is grumpy.

animals i would like to hug

Penguins:


































TELL ME THOSE ARE NOT THE MOST HUGGABLE ANIMALS IN THE WORLD.

in ukulele news

I like to think I'm getting better but I know I'm not but I think I actually am because instead of singing along with Imagine today, I just played the chords and it sounded like Imagine. or close enough anyway. and same with Something. and I'm really liking playing I Wanna Hold Your Hand, but, err lamely I reallyreallyreally like to play It Don't Come Easy.by, yes, Ringo Starr. back off (boogaloo!) he's pretty awesome.

I was like, MOM I WILL SERENADE YOU and she was like, MAKE ME HOT CHOCOLATE THEN SERENADE ME. I did Imagine and Something and I Wanna Hold Your Hand for her (last night, over Skype, I did It Don't Come Easy and Liverpool 8 and other random songs for Heather) and besides the fact I suddenly got very nervous, singing-wise (which is weird because I will sing anything anywhere and anytime. we were leaving McDonald's yesterday and I was singing HEY JUUDE DON'T MAKE IT BAAD...under the assumption nobody else was around in the parking lot but in fact the McD's guy was right behind us. and today I was talking to H walking to class and we brought up the Lion King and I broke out in song, EVERYONE SAYING DO THIS! and she didn't break out in song with me so I was like, argh hoffman what the hell.) and so I was just mumbling the words and blushing and trying to get my chords right.

So there's a show on in a half hour called How the Beatles Rocked the Kremlin on PBS or something. It's got Beatles in the title so I'm for defs watching it.

And try to learn If I Fell on the uke. It's got a lot of tricky chords.

also today was the first meeting of our CHS knitting/crochet club, which actually is overwhelmingly crochet. irks me. I know I started out a crocheter and bitched about knitting but honestly, I think I'm more a knitter now, I haven't used a crochet hook in weeks. Well, wait, I tell a lie. I used to crochet hook to save a dropped stitch while knitting. Yep. Anyway. The german teacher, an English teacher, and the librarian were there- and some little frosh boy who crochets and loom-knits and so I ran off to get H. so I could even out the teacher/student ratio since it was leaning rather annoyingly to the teacher side. it was fun 'cept I'm a doofus and forgot my goshdarn yarn so I just sat there and was like, yes I knit I just...forgot my stuff.

and I finished another ipod sock (did I mention I made on, yes, no? i did. i made another.) and I made one for H., too, since she asked and needs ones. it's like a little pocket with a button, the button is a robot. like mine, my first one had a button-robot. robot-button. hnn.

mhmm I have Cheezits party mix which is like cheezit chex mix so ti's pretty awesome. and dr pepper. and a ukulele and yarn and i am in general, pretty content except I have to go to school tomorrow. ergh. also I am getting sick. with the cold or something.

I totally half-assed my way through an English test today. it was a strange feeling. mhm. is beowulf a static or dynamic character? mhm as you can see from this here quote he does not change at all tha end.

I've looked at my priorities in life lately and here's what I've found:
1. music.

• The Beatles. this includes but is not limited to: George Harrison, John Lennon, Paul McCartney, Ringo Starr, Sean Lennon, Julian Lennon, Dhani Harrison, whatever band Zak Starkey is in lately (the Who, I think)
  

• other music: the Who, Hendrix, Bob Dylan, Bowling for Soup, etc.

2. my ukulele- this should go under 1, technically.

So those are the main two things that are keeping me alive, lately. Like I'll be having a hell of a time in school or just a terrible day and then I'll think, oh. Paul McCartney exists. I'm alright. Or I'm so dead tired I just want to pass out in bed but I'll go I should try and learn the beginning bit for Imagine spot on...
Also, knitting and yarn and all that.
Today I said to my mom, "Mom, I should tell you that when I'm not in school, I'm the happiest I've ever been." I really hate school. It's soul-numbing and oppresive and evil and fuck the man, dude. christ. I hate just writing about it, it makes me sad...
okay, back to my uke and then watching that Beatles thing. :D

sidenote: singing Liverpool 8, it's hard not to burst out laughing at the really cheesy lyrics. but i love Ringo.

classic rock 102.9

That's my favorite radio station. EVER.
Yesterday 'The Ballad of John and Yoko' was on. Now, I'm the type of person when a Beatles/Who/Stones/Kinks/Dylan (and anyone else awesome I'm forgetting) I have to stop the conversation and sing with it or just listen. And we did. And then today, leaving the haircut place, I literally was like, "STOP. ringo." and It Don't Come Easy was on. So I turned the volume up and we sang GOT TO PAY YOUR DUES IF YOU WANNA PLAY THE BLUES AND YOU KNOW IT DON'T COME EASY
and again today, we were leaving Albertson's and I was like, PAUL and Band on the Run was on so I turned it up, yelling, "Paul McCartney and WINGS Band on the RUN" and we all sang "BAAAAND on the RUUN" so I'm thinking someone at that station likes the Beatles which is awesome.

and drop out

Figure I'd better finish off the previous's post title thing.
I got a haircut today. It's layer-y.
Am still trying to learn Imagine on the uke. Or I Wanna Hold Your Hand. arghh.
am killing time because I am loading the movie Backbeat on youku and is slow loading and yes, it's about the Beatles. Also I want to watch I'm Not There which is about Bob Dylan. who is also awesome.
sooo I'm just bored. sundays are boring. i have a red bow in my hair.
grrr.

turn on, tune in

I got my tuner today. And so now I'm all tuned up and everything so what I'm playing is starting to sound like what I want it too. I'm getting quite good at Imagine and Something. I want to learn, uh, I Want to Hold Your Hand or the like, you know. Uh. All My Loving. ROCKY RACCOON would be so fun to play! and sing.
So just a few minutes ago I was on the couch playing Imagine and mom says, wow, it's starting to sound like something and at first I am slightly miffed because a) i did not know she was listening, I kind of get into it, singing/mumbling and ignoring numb fingertips and b) it was sort of insulting but also, cool, and then she brought up getting me lessons for Christmas. which honestly i'd never thought about. so that would be really cool.
and my fingertips and still slightly number. It's the F and A that get my index finger. ergh.
Also today I ran into a door. Sort of. kinda. It more like hit me in the face as I was trying to walk through the doorway. and slammed my glasses up against my face. and into my eye. there is a cut above my eye. and my glasses are all wonky. so, yeah, excitement.
right now I'm searching the interwebs for Beatles tabs and whatnot..I started playing some guitar ones for a while before I realized it. lol

heyy jude

At any given point, someone in my house is singing this, swear to God. It is damned catchy.

My hands are all red. From dyeing yarn. I wanted red yarn and I had cherry Koolaid so I bought some Paton's Wool and dyed it. 4 packets of Cherry Koolaid did not make it very red so I was all grumpy; we went down to the store and I got six packets of Tropical Punch, which has sufficiently reddened the yarn. And mah haands.

Today was a half day cos we had these student led conferences. And SO. (uh I should be nanowrimoing..) I went with H. and some other AP Comp/Lit (iforgetwhich) kids and helped them do a project for Beowulf, they're makin' a Beowulf movie. Since it's H. and 2 other girls, I ended up doing the camera-work and also I was Unferth in the scene where Unferth dies. I got killed by Grendel. Who was H. Anyway. Was crazy fun. And helping again tomorrow.

So my student led conference was today at 5:30 and I made it 5:30 so mom could come after work. She wasn't there. Dad was. And I came home and was all, pff thanks for coming to my conference mom. And she was like, no that's tomorrow. I was like, no it was a few minutes ago. And she was like WHAAT.
Ugh I am shaking so bad right now for no particular reason. I'm not like really cold or anything fuuck. Shaking. Ugh so. I should have like double the Nanowrimo words I have like now. Arghh.

todayy

Things That Have Happened Today in No Particular Order:
- Coming to school today, having awful time, late already. In our locker, (me and H's locker) we have a little white board. She had written an arrow to a picture of the Beatles below it with 'RINGO!' sideways pointing to Ringo. It made my day. :D
- Got my new glasses. I like them. Seeing sharply, very nice.
- apparently also breaking my ipod oh shit shit shit... Woah. I was trying to extract files to Xavier's notes files (Xavier is my ipod) and it froze so I tried to close it and THEN THE DESKTOP DISAPEARED and so I tried to minimize everything to find anything out and THAT WAS ABAD IDEA and then so I opened up ctrl-alt-dlt and double-clicked itunes and opened that up, ejected my ipod, and then shut down the computer and now all is well...hopefully.
- okay related to that thing that just happened, I found a thing where you can put books on itunes so I've got Sense and Sensibility on there (just testing it out really) and THEN I got all the free bits of With Strings Attached, the fantasy epic Beatles fanfiction novel and am trying to put it on there when it froze my computer. Totes worth it though. I love With Strings Attached. Trying again.
- Blake gave me a guitar pick to use on my ukulele. Makes it twang funny. Need a light pick, I think, since this was Blake's he used on his guitar or his bass guitar..
- watched the Office and Andy playing Rainbow Connection on the banjo. Now want to play Rainbow Connection on ukulele. Why are there so many songs about rainbows and what's on the other siiide...
- ugh, my glasses are freaking me out sometime..
- the first 21 chapters of With Strings Attached on now on my ipod. YAYYAY. When I finish reading these I'll pay the 3 bucks to download the whole thing off the internet...
- Beatles BOOTLEGS. awesomnesss.
i'm shaking, better be off to bed
but not before getting really obsessed with these beatlegs. grr.

mwahah

My mom was asking me about some song her bf told her to listen to- so I was like, I'll dl it from itunes and so I did, and then she wanted like 4 more songs. It was like friggin' when you give a mouse a muffin. When you help mom download a song she knows, she'll want another. When you help her get another, she'll want a song she only know the title of. When you help you with that one, she'll want a song she doesn't know the title of but expects you too. Once you downloaded those, she'll want to burn a disc of love songs for her boyfriend. After helping her create a playlist of love songs for her boyfriend, she'll want you to put it on her music player. After she finds her music player, you try to explain to her it probably won't work because the music if from itunes and the Sansa and itunes don't compute, but she'll ask you to try anyway. Once you fail at that, she'll ask you to burn the songs to a disc. You politely explain we don't have any blank discs.

Gah. Most of the songs are, lol, The Beatles or Paul McCartney. Because we were getting the music from my itunes and the majority of my itunes is Beatles and Paul and George and John and Ringo. She had 4 songs she wanted for the disc and so I was like, how about this one? have you ever heard Led Zeppelin, mom? how about some PAUL MCCARTNEY? There's like 3 Paul songs. No More Lonely Nights, Let me Roll It, and something else ballad-y. and it's got BFS and some more of my music type of things. I kept suggesting The Who but it turns out her BF already looves the Who (in fact he's the one that told mom to get me Who's Next back in Christmas, which is awesommmee because the Who rocckk.) so we didn't put any Who on there. Huh gofigure.

Mhmm I'm Nanowrimo-ing for lack of better thing to do. It's surprisingly easy.

eta, later: Nanowrimo.org linked me to TVtropes. And now I'm watching Rock and Roll High School. TVTROPES.

suspicious

so like, there's this site that sells music, bluebeat.com. they have the beatles music on there. not really supposed to to, actually. thinking about buying a few albums but I dunno which ones..Help! and something else..